Darkness

For someone with a history of depression, the doctor's will keep a close eye on you. Which is what they've done. I restarted Zoloft at the second trimester so I could possibly avoid post-partum depression. With Alexi, I had prenatal (or antenatal) depression, but figured it was situational. It's common to be on bed rest and be depressed. I just hadn't expected things to take such a turn last week for me this time around.

The symptoms are classic, straight out of the text books.
*Inability to enjoy life
*Sleep issues
*Appetite issues
*Lack of energy
*Lack of concentration
*Low self-esteem
*Lack of interest in things you once enjoyed
*Anxiety
*Feelings of guilt or worthlessness
*Isolating (hiding from family and friends)

Recognizing the signs, I was in denial a few days but finally decided it was time to ring the doctor and increase my medication. I reached out to a few close to me last night to chat, which I believe made things worse.

I thought that giving birth would bring me some comfort and all would be right in the world again. Now, I'm not so sure of that.